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career, personals, thoughts

Intuition, anyone?

Intuition is "the immediate apprehension of an object by the mind without the intervention of any reasoning process" [Oxford English Dictionary].

Intuition is "1 : Immediate apprehension or cognition without reasoning or inferring 2 : knowledge or conviction gained by intuition 3 : The power or faculty of gaining direct knowledge or cognition without evident rational thought and inference." [Merriam-Webster]

This very same word is something that I badly need to work on and improve within me. Based on my self-initiated diagnosis and dosage of the reality check drug (which, by the way, turned out to be a bitter pill to swallow), my current sickness is weak intuition. It is the driver that contributes to my current struggle. Understanding the theories and rules in my chosen pursuit are hard enough, but it's a whole lot harder appreciating these in a more intuitive manner.

Unfortunately, the reality check drug can only help me notice or recognize the problem and not really to cure it (not even gradually). I still need to find the right vitamins or supplements in order to gain intermediate intuition or to exercise the intuitive side of my brain.

I'm supposed to be in the "work in process" stage. However, if I were to thoroughly assess myself, I can't say for sure if I'm already in that stage, or if I'm still the same raw material produced by my Alma Mater (note the emphasis on the word in bold). I'm not sure where the problem really lies. Is it because of the weak foundation I had from college? Is it my low capacity utilization? Is it my age? Is it my lack of discipline and complacency (an attitude that I imposed to myself since college)? Is it because of lack of time (the fact that there are only 24 hours a day)? Is it because of my excessive exposure to the internet and boob tube? Is it because I'm in the wrong place, or am I at the right track but doing things the wrong way? Is it because I'm really not smart enough? Or is it most if not all of the above + the possible factors not known to myself?

I dunno. I guess I'm just glad that I'm aware of what the problem really is. It is important for me to work on the problem because I've been wanting to do and pursue certain things successfully with certain people, for myself and people whose opinion and impression really count. After being able to fully recognize the problem, I thought I should do things slowly, but surely. I just hope that I am not and will not be too slow.